A Rose with Starry Eyes











{January 28, 2010}   quote of the day

“Rose is eating only granola bars so that she can get down to where I was before [reference to her ED] and we’ll have to have a lunch table intervention.”

~a friend

That was a major trigger for me. I’m going to keep reminding myself of that phrase- it’s concrete evidence she views me as a wannarexic.  I wish I could get down to her lowest weight. I wish I could be as thin as Schiz during her starving phase. I wish I could have the willpower she’s had, I wish I could be as sick as she.

This is practically a challenge.

Well, I can’t wait to see the look on her face once I’m finally visibly thinner. I can’t wait til we show up at the pool this summer and I’m sleek and modellesque, and she’s chunky and short. The results have to be visible, not just a few pounds or inches.



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