- Think of going to the doctor’s office & seeing the weight loss on a definite, accurate scale. Having the doc comment on the weight loss, how fast it went.
- nothing is forbidden to your diet – you can put whatever you want INTO your mouth, you just can’t SWALLOW it.
- imagine you have a perfect, flat tummy with a midi-top & hip-bones. now imagine how heavy that food will feel in your tummy, how it would stretch out your dream skins.
- remember that il. girl from camp who would talk about how everyone thinks it’s not a real disorder because she doesn’t look it. do you want to be like her, no will-power, no one concerned for you, no results for your suffering? you’ll suffer anyways, you might as well get results!
- imagine what the food will look like, churning and mushed in your stomach.
- if you told anyone that you had an eating disorder, would anyone even believe you?!
- do you look remarkably slim, even in pics? no matter what you wear, no matter how you’re angled, are you thin? no? then you’re NOT hungry enough.
- do your clothes drape off you? do you look like G from Prose yet?
- Where do you live? at home? nope. WRONG! You live at the library. You live on the elliptical. Home is just a place you sleep. You couldn’t even IDENTIFY a kitchen if your life depended on it…
- Just take it 10 pounds at a time.
interesting music that can trigger:
- The Mideval Babes (reminds of Shiney; great to picture gypsy-dancing to.)
- Meav (sings Irish-Celtic songs; sounds a lot like Avalon,
random trigger thoughts:
- priestesses of Avalon, fasting for transcendence, above the outside world & encroaching Christianity
- the Lady of Shalott; Ophelia floating amongst the lillies
- walking through the forest, on your own, totally free and light-footed.
- light, beautiful soprano voice; talented at strings music
- gypsy dancer, like Esmerelda, twirling and spinning, hypnotic
- communing with the fey, connected to nature through empath skills
- Anne Boleyn, exquisite dresses and a powerful ambition; a temptress with enough fire to upset hundreds of years of a monarchy’s tradition and forge a new religion to get her way.
- Emily Bronte, fasting for inspiration, wandering the moors at night beneath a canopy of stars
- a feisty society girl, a chic flapper, a bohemian in Paris; soft and birdlike like Mia Farrow.
- a lithe ballerina
- a lone girl in the library
resonating time periods:
- 1800s frontier life
- 1800s society
- ancient Egypt
- possibly Native American culture (?)
- Victorian times? (especially the hair pinned up, the dresses; a teacher?)
