A Rose with Starry Eyes

{February 7, 2010}   Shiney is my #1 Trigger

I am having so many strange moments in my head right now. I have a plan that, after I fry my “bigger fish” so to speak, I’m going to use a black skull candle and a poppet on her to make her blow up like a balloon! That mermaid is sushi.

I’m picturing Shiney sitting down-table from me and eating a pile of nacho cheese with soft pretzels, a bag of chips and 2 cookies, a tray lunch; and to top it all off, irony of ironies, a vitamin water. XD I’m sitting on the other end of the lunch table eating ready-made Sushi/California Rolls from Sendicks using chopsticks, and drinking a diet tea in a glass bottle. (A bit like Molly Ringwald in Breakfast Club.) Xang, Rach, the Twins, FroshGoth, and a few others are sitting around me too, all eating as well. I’m easily the thinnest though, wearing size 2 clothes from Victor/Victoria’s, long hair impeccably groomed, a new nose and a modellesque face.

I’ve decided I’m going to start a “binge box”, or a place to store binge food so I can prove to myself that I have willpower far beyond hers and that I can store all the junk foods I’d like and never touch any; and if I absolutely must binge, I’ll chew and spit, using only these foods which no one will miss. (We bought a bunch of candy today for the Superbowl and I’ll sneak my share into my pockets when no one is looking.)

et cetera