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{April 19, 2010}   Selma Blair

“I’m the first to say I have no apologies if I get thin. Yeah, maybe sometimes I’m stressed and don’t have much room for the bad doughnuts I like to eat, but unfortunately I’m probably at my healthiest when I’m my thinnest.”

“I really binged on food in Budapest. It was so cold and we were shooting nights. The director says that in one half of the film I look boney and in the other half like a puffer fish. It’s the most unprofessional thing I have ever done on a movie. So I gained 20 pounds and now I have to work out – and diet!”

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{April 14, 2010}   paying for surgery
  1. Apply for a credit card, make & pay off monthly purchases to build up a good credit score.
  2. If possible, get a loan from peer-to-peer lending.
  3. Sell your blood plasma to a local clinic 2x a week (max) and possibly be paid in cash. Get $15 to $30 each time, and more if you have been vaccinated for Hep B.
  4. Look into becoming a dominatrix (estimate $200 per hour).
  5. Selling your hair online to make wigs is a possibility; if you choose to, then to sell maximum inches, just shave your head and but a cheap wig from wowwigs.com
  6. Sell your eggs upon turning 18 to any of the companies underneath for minimum $5,000:
    1. The Muasher Center in Virginia will pay you $5,000 to be an egg donor. They will give you fertility drugs to take and requires visits for blood tests and ultrasounds. Egg recovery is a 20-minute procedure.
    2. Conceptual Options will pay egg donors with college degrees over $5,000. They will actually verify your transcripts to confirm your grades. If you are smart you will be on the fast track in their extraordinary egg donor program.
    3. Advanced Fertility Care in Arizona will pay you $3,500 plus provide free health care while you are participating in the program. They are looking for healthy 18- to 30-year-old women living in Arizona.
    4. Genetics & IVF Institute in Washington, DC area is specifically interested in egg donors that have interests in the arts, science and athletics. They provide compensation starting at a minimum of $6000. Your identity will be protected from egg recipients.
    5. Palm Beach Fertility Center in Boca Raton, Florida will pay $4,000 for your egg donation. They are looking for egg donors from 18 to 34 years old. They are looking for women that do not smoke and are not overweight.
    6. Choice Donations in Lakeville, Massachusetts will pay $5,000. They advertise that the process will take 10 to 20 hours for a 4- to 12-week period of time.
    7. Pacific Fertility Center will pay you $7,000 for your first time and $7,500 for repeat donors! In addition they will cover all of your expenses to travel to their clinic in San Francisco, California. This clinic provides all medical care and entire process is handled at their fertility clinic.
      1. This one is excellent because it is not necessary to have proven fertility (no prior pregnancy, abortion, or miscarriage).
      2. They focus on ethnicity, intelligence, and special interests.
      3. Must send in high-quality photos, so perhaps wait until after surgery.
      4. For egg donors traveling from a distance greater than 150 miles, they take care of your travel arrangements and expenses (this includes payment and booking of airfare and lodging), and will reimburse meals (up to $35.00 total per day).
      5. IF you live out of CA, you will have to travel to our clinic up to three times. The third and final time will be for your egg retrieval and plan to stay for about 1 week.
    8. Surro Genesis USA is looking for 21- to 30-year-old egg donors. They will happily pay you $5,000 to $8,000 for your donation. To be an egg donor, you must have blood tests done, take hormones and submit to egg retrieval.
    9. Seattle Reproductive Medicine will pay $3,500 for the first time and $4,000 for repeat donations. They will not accept you as an egg donor if you are overweight, smoke, do not have a high school diploma, have problems with depression or had a tattoo within last year.
    10. A Woman’s Gift based out of Marlton, New Jersey will pay you $5,000 for your egg donation.
    11. Rbaby Surrogacy Services will pay you $3,000 to $6,000 to be an egg donor. If you want to be a surrogate and carry baby full term you may be compensated $18,000 to $30,000. They advertise their company as the gay surrogacy service.


{March 23, 2010}   November from Dollhouse

November from Dollhouse is 5′ 9″ and 145 pounds; of course, she got killed off and the guy is really in love with Size 2 Echo, plus she has no new projects coming up, so…

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{March 17, 2010}   kale lemonade recipe

Tracy Anderson has a strict formula for how to achieve what she calls the “Madonna hook” (a tiny diagonal muscle that juts out under the armpit) and a perky bum, but when it comes to the recipe for her famous Green Juice, it’s all pretty loose. Basically, if it’s leafy and green, it goes in, and there are no real measurements. The concoction goes down surprisingly easy and is unbelievably energizing.

Ingredients:

  • Spinach
  • Kale
  • Chard
  • Apple
  • Lemon
  • Ginger
  • Parsley

Directions: Juice all the items and combine. The combination should be heavy on the kale, spinach and chard, light on the apple, ginger, lemon and parsley. Drink at least once a day — or even better, twice a day, the first one for breakfast.

My personal input: Perhaps a small amount of spirulina should be added for protein; plus, doesn’t require juicing.

See “Gwyneth, Madonna and Me,” Jamie Rosen’s story about her Tracy Anderson fitness challenge.

link: http://www.wmagazine.com/w/blogs/editorsblog/2009/04/17/tracys-green-juice.htm

Excerpt from article about Tracey Anderson in Harper’s Bazaar:

There have been times in her life when she has all but subsisted on the kale lemonade that makes her feel like a superhero, her skin velveteen.

link here: http://www.harpersbazaar.com/magazine/feature-articles/tracy-anderson-method-0409



{March 16, 2010}   amanda seyfried loses weight

See? Even the pretty, glow-y, “natural” girl has to go “Hollywood skinny” to keep up her career….

(Amanda Seyfried on a raw foods diet under the cut.)

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{March 12, 2010}   Elyse on ANTM

Britain’s Next Top Model anorexia blog: http://the-f-word.org/blog/index.php/2009/04/14/britains-next-top-model-from-anorexic-ideal-to-openly-anorexic/

HUUUUUUGE thread about Elyse: http://www.fansofrealitytv.com/beta/america-s-next-top-model-10/6924-elyse-124.html

blurb about Elyse: http://everything2.com/title/Elyse+Sewell

thread discusses Elyse’s supposed anorexia; AMAZING notes on hypocrisy: http://forums.televisionwithoutpity.com/index.php?showtopic=3117370&st=30

  • Elyse was 5’10” and 114, which is 8 pounds heavier than the same-height Shandi, who got next to no hassling on the show for having those proportions, even after she fainted. Then again, the other contestants didn’t see Shandi as much of a threat (cue “Aw, Shandi.”), unlike Elyse. Keeping your mouth shut can pay dividends.
  • I’m not sure the eating disorder was fake…she looks seriously unhealthy to me, and even her buddy Adrienne indicated that something was fishy. Obviously nothing can be proven based on the footage we saw, but I don’t think we can say definitively whether she had one or not, just because Elyse and her boyfriend claim that she loves ice cream or whatever. I think I really began to loathe Elyse when she said that of course she couldn’t have an eating disorder, because she was so dang smart and knew much more about eating disorders than any of the other girls. Well honey, if you did know a lot about eating disorders, you would realize that chicks like you often develop them. I know several female medical students who are extremely intelligent, driven, and arrogant who suffer from eating disorders. Just because you’re smart and know what they are doesn’t mean you can’t have one.
  • J. Alexander saying she’s great for clothes. They do call the runway models “clothes hangers.” Crap, I think I said that about last season…anyway, she’s the actual body type. We all know that, though.
  • After watching all these other supposed models freak out over Elyse’s supposed eating disorder, it’s obvious none of them have a future in high fashion modeling, nor have a clue over what it’s all about.
    Have any of them ever watched any European fashion shows? If anything, most professional haute couture runway models make Elyse look quite healthy.
    Those gals are insanely tall, whispy rails, literal clothes hangers, and that’s the standard for the runways. I‘m sure most of them live on champage, cigarrettes, coffee, and the occasional salad…if they’re not snorting coke.
  • I think most women have a somewhat tenuous relationship with food. Elyse seems to feel good about her body. I know, she wants to stay that skinny and that’s a bit scary. At the same time, I have read a few studies showing how eating much less is actually good for you and can extend your life span significantly. She doesn’t look like she’s dying to me, or thin beyond her body’s comfort level. I know Adrianne was worried too, but the fact that Robin used it as a way to make Elyse seem like she shouldn’t be there (jeebus, how many fucking ways does she go out of her way to alienate Elyse?), makes me wanna say it isn’t true. If I heard her say something like, “Oh, no, I eat cookies and pastries all day long,” well, that’s like the red banner for eating disorders. She seems aware that she eats little, and doesn’t obsess all that much.
  • I’m not naturally THAT thin, but while I was seriously ill for over a year I had the eating disorder accusation thrown at me repeatedly at work, by friends, and (most fun) by doctors who wouldn’t listen to me. I got very defensive very fast about it. A lot of it was due to the tone and attitude people would take towards me when ‘expressing concern’. They wouldn’t ask a morbidly obese person standing next to me if they were a compulsive eater, but it was perfectly all right to them to grill me about what I ate, monitor me in public, and time the difference between my eating and my bathroom trips. And compare notes. I started yelling at people after a few months of that, too. And carrying around endoscopy pictures detailing why I was losing weight. And whipping them out. At restaurants. I could make anyone anorexic.
  • More on subject, I know how you feel about people questioning whether you have an eating disorder. When I went hyperthyroid for the first time, I dropped 20 pounds and was pretty skeletal. My mom kept accusing me of being anorexic, and it drove me nuts trying to explain to her that I was losing weight on purpose. I really empathize with Elyse. Even though I’ve gained the weight back, my eating philosophy is like Elyse’s: I eat when I’m hungry and stop when I’m full. And I’ve had quite a few friends make mean-spirited remarks about how I “never eat.” It gets old, fast.
  • Did anyone notice that she had a Bust magazine with her a few episodes ago?
  • Robin used every opportunity to bring up Elyse’s so-called eating disorder, notice? I like how she wore a freaking towel over her butt in the first few shoots, cried because of how she felt about her body, and then at the Zen sit-in, went on about how she embraced every curve on her precious god-given body, and then on and on (like the freakin prayer about those demons) about how the fashion industry makes people too skinny and have eating disorders, Elyse.
    Shannon looks more like she’s missing some nutrients due to poor eating habits. Her skin and hair look a little rough…
  • She has such a small stomach/frame anyway—why would she have a huge appetite? Different body types, different metabolism/appetite rates too.
    I’ve recently lost over 20 pounds, and some folks have actually asked me if I have an eating disorder because I don’t “care about food as much.”
    Hello, my stomach is smaller, hence my appetite is smaller! Why is this such a big mystery to some folks?
    If anything, she has a very healthy perspective of food—we’re not supposed to snack or graze throughout the day at the rate that most of America does, and most people DON’T know when to judge when they’ve eaten too much or when they’re actually hungry.
  • Re: Elyse’s abilities in medical school. She’ll do fine. However, she needs to understand that in med (and law) school, there is ALWAYS someone smarter than you. You’re a Regents Scholar? Your classmate is a Rhodes Scholar. Magna Cum Laude with a double major? Your classmate graduated Summa Cum Laude with three majors and finished in three years. Once she can understand that she will not be the best (something I had to accept as well), she’ll be fine.

Elyse’s livejournal: http://elysesewell.livejournal.com/

good thread: http://www.fansofrealitytv.com/forums/america-s-next-top-model/75184-antm-weight-body-issues-thread.html

  • Elyse also fainted, didn’t she? Or was that someone else? I know Elyse says she doesn’t have an ED and lord knows her blog is all about food, but seeing her eat oatmeal at a pizza parlor really looked like a model trying not to gain weight.
  • Shandi fainted during the makeup challenge. She was shoved into some hot lights and acknowledged afterwards that she hadn’t been eating properly.


{February 24, 2010}   Lindsay Lohan randomness

An in-depth look at Lindsay Lohan as a thinspo icon, a tragic beauty, a Marilyn Monroe-wannabe, an adderall abuser, “ana girl”, her self-destructive affairs, her tattoos, & her parallels to Shiney….

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{February 21, 2010}   Kate Winslet weight articles

Kate Winslet comments on Hollywood anorexia & growing up fat.

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{February 21, 2010}   guest star: Alice

Some random blurbs from an Asian ana blogger; talks about vanity sizing, racist magazine covers, nailpolish, etc…

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{February 14, 2010}   who is ana to me?

For me, it used be Kiera Knightley. she was SO gorgeous, especially after Pirates of the Caribean: Dead man’s Chest. The most exquisite bone structure, the best career, and such admirable self-control. (She claims to be naturally slim, but there are laineygossip rumors about her “indulgences” (meaning cocaine) and possible bulimia (because her jaw sticks out rather a lot, which according to doctors can be a sign of regular, forced vomiting.)

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For a while I considered Lily Allen, who is obviously dealing with BDD and crash-dieting as well as cocaine usage (parallels to adderall), but she’s kind of an ass and never makes any REAL progress.

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Now my image of ana is me but thinner, with insanely concave cheekbones, collarbones that jut out a little bit, lean non-chubbsy legs, a tiny waist, etc. The way I’d love to look on camera.



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