A Rose with Starry Eyes











{May 14, 2010}   more boy news!

OK, so this guy who I’ll call Cliff in my Drama as Lit class was in a group with Xang and I and we’re doing a project together. Yesterday we talked and had fun, and I sort of realized how cute he was. At lunch today I stayed in the library a bit and then went into lunch. A few minutes after I came in, Cliff came over to our table. Everyone was playing Risk and he sat down too, and when his friend came over I mentioned gurren laggan, the anime I was watching earlier. It turns out Cliff’s into cosplay too, and he loves anime and acting.

So for class today, Xang didn’t show and it was just him and I. We spent the entire hour procrastinating and talking, and I started recommending tv shows and stuff like that, and writing it on his arms. It was definitely flirty, and we didn’t get anything accomplished. He has a great sense of humor though, and laughed at a lot at the stuff I said. We didn’t even start the poster we were supposed to do, so then I asked him what he had next hour. He had study-hall but had to do algebra, so I told him to skip it and make the poster with me.

We ended up in the hallways, trying to work on a poster about a question neither of us knew how to answer. In desperation, I flopped down on the poster- and when he asked me what I was doing, I told him to trace me. He protested, but then gave in. Then I made him lay down and I traced him. It was honestly kind of sexy to make a guy lie down in the position I wanted him to with his eyes closed so I could draw around him. 🙂 We did this for a while and I was sure to “accidentally” brush strands of my hair over him. We both ended up getting marker on eachother, and I even drew some ontop of his eye. 😛 When we finally started working on the poster, I talked him into staying late so he’d miss part of his next class. He agreed, but pretended to put up a fuss. As we talked, I found out he does acting outside of school and did a drawing of himself as the hulk, and I had to feel his bicep to be sure. (Surprisingly hot arms!) He also gave me his number. I talked him into setting up our stuff in the middle of the hallway so that we blocked almost all of it during the passing time. Then, being late for class, we went to our Drama room and lied to get a pass from the teacher, who told us to write them out and she would sign them. I filled his out as Batman and she signed it without even looking! Then we walked together to his class and later on, IMed eachother. I kept trying to flirt with him but he was oblivious, and also trying to IM 4 other people simultaneously. I did manage to ask him to draw me, however, and he said he would if I liked one of the works he did before, which be up around school soon.

I really like this guy. Obviously the voodoo spell will work and Dev and I will be together- it’s inevitable. But there’s nothing wrong with flirting and maybe even kissing until that lovable idiot finally comes to his senses! Plus, it’ll give him something to work for. I actually go an update from the voodoo woman about the strength of her attraction spells. This is what she said:

but my attraction spells never did fail this is for sure my dear. I did make even wedding happen with my attraction spell so you will have your results.

Your spell is going fine do not worry I am casting it twice a day and is doing all my power to make it as strong as I can.

xang said she was surprised that I liked him but she’s happy that I do, since Dev went from being semi-attainable to barely attainable, but now Cliff is attainable to me. She’s glad that I didn’t settle for the first guy I liked (meaning dev) and that I have three options now (including a cute sophmore who I rarely get to see).



{March 4, 2010}   introspective drabbles

For some reason, I am apparently naturally beloved by teachers. It’s been that way since I was a child; teachers always seemed to love me, with a few exceptions. Maybe it’s because I lack so many social skills I end up sincere? Perhaps I remind them of themselves a bit. Maybe I had so few friends as a child they felt sorry for me. I know I was a good writer, and I truly loved to read and learn, and maybe that impressed them. As I grew older, I procrastinated more, but teachers still indulge me occasionally, and even the older woman in the Learning Center who I used to hate says hello to me and knows my name, smiles sometimes even.

Things I thought were close calls but weren’t:

  • Yesterday when Twin Bi asked me what I was blogging about – world peace?
  • Today when the lady in my Learning Center came up to me and said that she was “concerned about me” and I had all these pro blogs up on my screen. I had also printed thinspo and mantras from the printer in that room. She then started talking about how I was pounding too hard on keyboard (which has sticky keys) and would hurt my wrists – it might not show now but trust her, it would show in the future, she’d had the surgery to prove it, she said, pointing to a line on the underbelly of her wrist. I was SO relieved! The whole thing seemed sort of ridiculous…


{March 1, 2010}   funny craig ferguson videos

Fat People Hate the Truth (Craig F.)

Russel Brand & Craig Ferguson: Fizzy Wee-wee and Noam Chomsky-lovin’ Hill-Billies

Craig Ferguson on Voting

Craig as James Bond audition

Craig Ferguson’s James Bond monologue

Craig at the Schmilton

Craig Ferguson on $$$ and the Bullmoose Party



{February 10, 2010}   attention whore evidence!

Beneath this cut are the demented ramblings of a very Shiney wannarexic. They’re funny, frustrating, but above all? …Triggering.

(as you read these, remember: you can get what she wanted most by being who she wasn’t able to be.)

(the best revenge is living well.)

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{February 8, 2010}   HYSTERICAL news!!!

OK, so I just found out at lunch from Twin Red that Shiney apparently paid some guy $50 cash to try to get “Shaggy” to go out with her– we’ll call him Shaggy due to his giant hair and usual stubble. And guess what? It didn’t work. (No surprises there!) Just like Twin Red said, “She’s annoying as hell; no one likes her!”

This happened just a week and a half ago, so we’re talking really, really recent. Although she told Xang about liking him, she never mentioned the cash, despite their supposed closeness from texting about boy problems. (So much for vulnerability!) Also interesting to note is that her parents got her a debit card, which I like to imagine she will use as a passport to unlimited fast food binges a couple months from now once I’m done with her. 😛 (McDonald’s, Dairy Queen, and pizza places all now accepting debit! XD )

I can’t help but wonder how she got the cash to bribe this guy. She doesn’t work at Rocky Rocoo’s anymore. (Visualization: her working there, fat in the future, and me and a bf going there during her shift; me with just a diet coke!)



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