A Rose with Starry Eyes











{April 23, 2010}   AMAZING news!!!

OK, First I’ll start off with the amazing move and then move on to the mediocrity that is my usualĀ life. šŸ™‚

From 2 days ago (Wednesday):

I saw Dev the other day at the anime club that Zen invited me to. It was right after work and I was feeling drained so I almost didn’t go, but then decided, fuck it, I’ll go anyways. I wore a HOT green top that showed cleavage and wore dominatrix heels, though I ended up taking those off. According to Zen, he DEFINITELY noticed the top! šŸ˜‰

He asked me why I didn’t go to the dance. First I claimed I had homework, which he scoffed at. Then I told him I didn’t have anything to wear. He said that he had looked through my facebook photos and that I DEFINITELY had things to wear! (He looked through my facebook pics? That is definitely a good sign!) I told him it was my friend’s dress not mine, and he insisted I could have borrowed it. I said Zen my wing-woman wasn’t there, and he said she would never go to a dance! It seemed to me that he was very keen on my going to the dance. (I also know that Dev had asked Zen why I didn’t go several times before asking me in person.)

There was also this one moment where he looked over at me and I saw him and I just felt lightning. I haven’t felt this way about someone for years! I also discovered that he sometimes randomly acts like a kitten, which I find unspeakably adorable.

As Zen walked with me to wait for my car, she told me that she had heard form a girl that Dev confides in that he had/ has feelings for a girl in Chicago, who lives too far away for him to have a relationship with her. Zen was afraid that I might be just a physical substitute for this other girl, and warned me of his commitment-phobia.

From yesterday (Thursday):

OK, so Zen talked to Dev for me, telling him that I didn’t ask her to because it’s “not my style”. So he told her that even though he thinks I’m “fabulous and all that”, he couldn’t date me til I’m 18, since he’s an education major and it might jeopardize his future job. He DID say that he wants to take things slow and get to know me, and would be willing to wait til I’m 18 to date me, and that he probably won’t date anyone til then. He said that he thought I would be taken though. And then… he did a FROWNY FACE!!! šŸ˜¦

This is amazing. This is the first time in my life that I’ve ever had a guy think I’m great- and the fact that he thinks I’ll be taken by then just goes to show that he thinks I’m attractive, maybe even out of his league!!!!!

Strangely enough, Rachel Berry on Glee just got a boyfriend. It was in the Madonna episode, which I have to say ROCKED. I think I might end up usingĀ Madonna’s attitudeĀ as career inspiration in the future…

Anyways, my plan is to first order an attraction spell and specifically make him not care about the age difference. To fall intensely in love with me and do anything to make me happy; to not feel content without me. šŸ™‚



{April 19, 2010}   life stuff
  • I’m taking so many classes during the summer that summer-schoolĀ is going to be the equivalent of a full day of school. (Turns out summer break is really anything but!)
  • I emailed the voodoo woman under an alternate email (so she wouldn’t think I was bothering or spamming her!) and asked if one of the physical traits she could change might be metabolism. I even went so far as to say Gisele Bundchen’s metabolism would be fab! Ā šŸ™‚
    • Just realized that based off the time that she emailed me back on my other account, I’ll have to wait til later tonight to know the answer, since I emailed my question 2 hours after she logged off. (She emailed me back 16 hours ago, and I emailed her 2 hours after that.)
  • Not gonna lie, I am starting to get back into Glee. It’s a really addictive show… but I still can’t figure out which character I identify with the most!
    • I really wish I could sing like the girl who plays Rachel Berry. I’m listening toĀ the GleeĀ version of “Gives You Hell”. God, what I wouldn’t give to have that voice! I actually admire the character’s guts, too, on some level. Knowing that she’ll be a star no matter what and that the people who made fun of her will realize their mistake someday… I wish I could be that sure!

look up Diana Agron for thinspo



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