A Rose with Starry Eyes

{February 24, 2010}   guest star: Athanasy

Beneath the cut lies a Joanna Newsom picspam, a red bracelet sale, & diet pill blurbs…

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{February 23, 2010}   guest star: anthasy
Monday, February 22, 2010

my personal thinspo

I will look like her if it’s the last thing I do.

who is her? She is my friend T that I might be living with next semester if she doesn’t leave.

She is completely and totally Ana. I just watch her and can tell. Besides her being super skinny, she never eats and when she does it’s not very much, she takes green tea pills (my other friend told me who lives w/ her now), her effing size 2 or 0 shorts are FALLING OFF of her, and today I just watched her as she compulsively bunched up her shorts and felt her hip bones. She was checking. She was CHECKING her bones. And checking to see how much extra room she had in her shorts.

I almost dropped my jaw when i saw how skinny she has actually gotten. I mean we knew she was losing weight steadily but now, now she is TINY. She was talking about how she has a lot of bruises and she bruises easily and i wanted to tell her “yeah, DUH, cause you’ve become anemic from anorexia. You are anorexic.”

But i guess you cant just tell people that even if you’ve known them for a really long ass time.

So yeah…..she is my thinspo. Wow, i think that may be just really wrong of me but,…i think im past the point of caring about things like that.

Todays fasting went pretty good….but I admit it was really hard sometimes. I really hope tomorrow is easier. Usually once I get past a certain point I feel like it gets somewhat easier save for the grumbling and rumblings that are still there.

I hope I can fall asleep tonight… i have a feeling it might not happen though uuuggghhhh. That one of the worst parts of fasting for me, i get little to no sleep. Man I need encouragement right now, I’m not doing a good job of it by myself right now.

link: http://ath-ana-sy.blogspot.com/2010/02/my-personal-thinspo.html

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